Practical Part 2-July 2009

I came back from holidays. The day was dark, representing my feeling. I was thinking at that time, what will be the new thing for July? First time arrived to Bukit Jalil was excited, but second time was feared. I have to overcome the pressure, depress and even trials. I know I must be strong otherwise I failed.

New working place was good, brem mall at kepong. I felt good because I know I’m able to get someone- May Wan for entertaining me when I’m feeling down. I can’t express too much of negative minds and complaints towards Yin Theng , because I don’t want to pressure her with my own problems. She will have same problems as mine or even worst than me. I don’t know what would happen in this practical again. I just want to pass my practical peacefully and unregretted.

I still remember the first meeting of July- the sales manager set the target for us to achieve. Peoples were keeping laughing me, “Minimum tiga”. I don’t think this was a joke and I always believe that the decisions I made will be right. There is not important to favor on people’s sight, but favor on God’s sight.

Starting July, people always used sarcastic words to insult me. I can take it, whatever they want to say regarding to body shape, my personalities, attitudes, but I don’t really like people using religion as a topic. Christ means a lot to me, it’s doesn’t matter if they don’t understand. But they keep using Christ to attack me make me felt uncomfortable. That time I really upset. Why people want to compare the beliefs and the religions. Nobody support me because I’m the only Christian in the house. "Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.” Thank God for this verse. This is because I know I am being blessed if people insult me for the sake of Christ.

In addition, it’s very hard to get off day. What I truly regret- I was not able to attend any church service, because weekend is the good day for getting more sales and customers. Sometimes I prayed, God, Please bless me with the sales on week day so that I’m able to ask for the permission to get Sunday as off day. I break the command of God, “Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another--and all the more as you see the Day approaching.”

After a month, I’m quite ok with the situation and condition of promoting credit card. Everyday, my mind was thinking, when this practical will end? When can I release this tiredness in body, spirit and soul? Am I able to pass through the practical and graduate with the better result?

Another experience in July-I don’t only promote credit cards in the mall but promote beside the road, in front of different bank. Frankly speaking, the experiences and feeling are great. I just feeling that I went back to the moment when I was small, selling “pao” besides the road. haha. There were busy flows of people specially the peak hours. What I truly enjoy was not promoting the cards, but the foods. The foods were varieties, delicious, and some I could not taste at my hometown. Standing outside was tiring, under the hot weather. The emotional will get crazy if I keep standing under the hot sun.

Practical Part one- June 2009

Practical past, time flies, I can’t expect that I’m able to pass through these four months. Memories are always there when we truly appreciate.

While typing my feeling, I just recall back when I arrived to Bukit Jalil, with Yin Theng, Rendy, Jocelyn, and Jiunn. A skinny guy came and took us. I never expected he is the manager of ours. The first impression of me towards him was truly bad, a smoking guy and never talk to us even we were new to the place.

I had been asked to start work day after I arrived. That time I was thinking, crazy… I never been to any training, courses, just a small, short moment of briefing, and yet they asked us to work. I totally can’t accept. What can I do? I’m new and I’m nothing at that time. Some of the UUM students were doing part-time over there. We are same Uni, but they never approach and talk to us. They treated us as stranger. Nobody introduce themselves to us. So, what can we do was, we did what we liked. Ampang Carrefour was my first experience, which I needed to approach the customers aggressively. Wei Lih was the one who brought us, taught us- me, yin theng and Jocelyn. He was very unhappy with our attitudes and I knew he kept complaint about us in front of others. Try to imagine, we have to stand more than 10 hours non-stop. That time, Jocelyn, Yin theng and I were very unhappy with these. We not dare to rest even for a moment when the leader was looking at us …haha…We were trying to change our practical, keep calling to the lecturer, UIL, but the problem was, the procedure was too “mafan” and I don’t like thing brings me to “mafan”

I still remember, the first time we was scolded by the manager,” if you guy don’t respect weilih and happy as your team leader, here is the key, you can go out now” and he threw the key. My reaction was, Wah, how come he talked to us like this?

After 14 days, Jocelyn leave, that time, I was very regret because I can’t leave and acts like her. I never cried, but I complaint. That’s why I’m the complain queen in that house. Everyday works, not dare to take rest because they were not allow us to take rest. I’m not under pressure, but under tired. My body, spirit and soul were tired with all these. 8a.m wake up in the morning, 845pm went to work and finish work at 10pm. Arrived home sometime 12am if worked together with the XXX. Haha …

In June, I was very unhappy, people treated us as a stranger, and we have nobody who really understands me during that time. I felt bad and I asked God, why like this? I though I will have a memorable practical. I still remember before I came for practical, I keep praying, asked God for His favor and send me regarding to His way and not mine. But why. Why God send me to the place that I dislike and hate so much. Why God didn’t listen to my prayer? Why God didn’t send me to any logistic company which I expected so much … with no answer..